To Moms Of Miscarriage

Those pats on the back,

And sympathetic smiles pointed my way.

They know what heartbeats I lack,

Something I could begin to call a bad day.

With feelings of being a failure,

Like it was all my fault.

Of life I'm just too unsure,

sonograms I'll keep in a vault.

The shame and embarrassment,

Like I am a woman of no use.

I thought my babies were heaven sent?

But from me they cut loose.

My heart aches now,

I know it to be an eternal pain.

I'll get over it somehow,

To remain calm and sain.

My partner looks at me with love,

deep down I know he hurts as much.

I'll keep praying to above,

And he'll do as such.

Maybe one day again,

I can find the strength.

To open my heart like a mother hen,

And carry gods gift full length.

I'll remember them forever,

My two precious twins.

At seven weeks our love did sever,

A boy and girl did come to ends.

Caden a proclaimed warrior,

A fighter with great might.

Harley as a dear memoir,

Books and bikes in same light.

I held them once so brief,

With the worst hello and goodbye.

With some ink I'll heal my grief,

For it was me that felt them die.